November 11, 2019
"Mes de los Muertos"

 

Poem for Kate in Chemo

 
 
 

Poem For Kate In Chemo

Above where your right breast used to be
the oncologist implanted a port to make life easier.
"It takes forever," you say. "An hour's drive, each
way, an entire day used up, laying there."

But first, the tourniquet, tied to your upper arm,
the cheery nurse, tapping for a working vein,
your thick blood at last flooding into one syringe
after another. Then the weigh-in, each time
less. "Bone and skin now," you say.

If your numbers are good, you head
to the chemo room, rows of cushy
recliners, supplicants tethered to plastic bags
held high by IV poles, a forest of metal trees.

You unbutton your blouse, offer up the convenient
port to a flush of saline -- like ocean, you tell me,
like waves.

Next, the chemicals, those shimmering droplets
riding the plastic tube into your chest,

a kind red blanket, thrown
over your legs.

I tear the best New Yorker short stories
from the magazine and mail them
to you in Port Townsend.
Something to pass the time. Something non-
medical to discuss when we chat each week.

We both know you're dying, though your
husband still has faith, and you cling to his
hope, coming back week after week because
it makes his life bearable.

When the chemo bags are empty,
and the stories read, you leave the pages behind
for a needful stranger.
In 2000, when you lost your breast,
your husband insisted you have
chemo then, too.
"It makes me feel more dead than alive,"
you confessed to me after the first week.

Appointment days, you'd leave the house,
drive to the woods, walk the trails
instead of treatment, those
huge redwood trees shading your path.

Each evening you'd return to your
husband's innocent embrace.

You made me promise not to tell.
And I never did, until now.






First published in The Nashville Review, 2017






Article © Alexis Rhone Fancher. All rights reserved.
Published on 2019-10-14
Image(s) are public domain.


2 Reader Comments

Harvey Silverman
10/16/2019
01:59:15 PM

The ending separates this from the usual cancer/chemo piece. Well done. Thanks for writing it.

Fuzzy
10/21/2019
10:35:49 AM

Poignant. I like the focus at the end of the poem on the beauty of the world outside the cancer, and the secret.

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